Addicted

Someday you break through
The glassy wall you make true
Put into a shelf your pain,
Listen to yourself, listen
To yourself again

You still do your best
But you’re addicted to your past
Waiting for the day you break through
The glassy wall you make true, you count
Seasons like days,
Tiredness in cafes

Your love kills me
Your love kills me

Thousand years seem to have passed
Since my ground grip was lost without a trace
Inspired by clear vision
I am all smiles upon my face
Thinkin’ of day
You crushed my heart like October’s storm
But nothing’s as same as… it’s kind of…
Hmm, it’s neither cold nor warm

Birthday

Watch those clouds -
In a minute sun'll go down
Everything and nothing changed for me
I'm a sleepy clown

Why again and again
Expectations are thrown down to the ground?
And I again and again
Collect them - I'm bound to

No I have too much this day

The quiet before the storm
All masterminds go home - it's better
I watch their eyes - they turn
And see my neck - I burn in water

However they do it
The situation makes us splitted
However do your things
On storm no one can hear me sing

No I have too much this day

Solitary

She's like a word there's no rhyme for
A fiddly game with no highscore
Outside her walls I can't find doors
But I adore

She loves the drizzle and the fog
Walks barefoot down to the old dock
Prays for her case to absorb the shock
But I will unlock

I won't let you threw away your life
Your life, your life
I won't let you threw away your life

She disrespects all interest
About the thing inside her chest
Detests the quest for being blessed
I'll do my best

I won't let you throw away your life
Your life, your life
I won't let you threw away your life

And there's no way I can gain on
Still there's thousand miles between us
Miles between us
Finding no way to ever reach you
Still share thousand miles between us
Miles between us

Insomnia

I’m lying in my bed
Insomnia has overcome me
I’m whisperin’ songs, my head
Will never rest while you surround me

Imprisoned by your smile,
Your special smile, yeah, it’s killing!
Like a work of arts
I know you know what I am feeling

Your beauty’s not of stars
Although when you’re so close there’s tension,
You’re one of God’s caprices
And God’s a fan of imperfection

Secret

Those single notes in a rhythm
Of a firing gun
Transporting visions of future
Reflecting sun
Through little window
Over our heads
We're seeing all the things
We'll never have

Promise me, you'd miss our
Barefoot walk over white floor
Fearing darkness
Kissing earrings, like before

Mrs. dare, Mrs. rare, Mrs. bare

Acquit yourself of your close lace
Come on, let's breath in this small place
Lay head to head and spill our talk
Paint on your soft, pale skin with chalk

Promise me, you'd miss our
Barefoot walk over white floor
Fearing darkness
Kissing earrings, like before

Reach out your hand

I have this feeling of this damn emotion
I chase it away, but it’s not that easy
It subdues me, feels like an ice-cold ocean
And I’m again alone in its middle

Reach out your hand for me
Reach out your hand or flee

The next wave's colder than the one before
So hurry up, what you are waiting for?
I wait for so long any lighthouse to glow
But I know up is there the bubbles go

Reach out your hand for me
Reach out your hand or flee

Externalization

They’re all around me but I feel alone
Yes it was my choice now I gotta go on my own
Through these boulevards of broken dreams
Through these pavements of tears and forgotten pain
But I found you and as it seems
I never want to be alone again

Without you I would not know what to do
But don’t you know I found myself in you

Always searched for a place to stay
Without knowing what's the price to pay
The more you search the less you get
Enjoy the moment and forget tomorrow
I’m telling you what my mind has said
It just told me to stop living in sorrow

So I continue travelling on my own
But now I know I’m not alone.

Buckeyes

Speak about it like you're not really sad
Speak about it like this man was not your dad
Speak about it like you don't want to talk
Speak about it like you don't want to walk away
Speak about it like this life wasn't yours
Speak about it like you don't suffer because of him
Speak about it like you want to forget
Speak about it like it was not in your bed

Sittin' right there in front of the window
Wind streams the hair with odor of spring
Over the night becomming an adult
But like a child you think of flying without wings

Buckeyes, small butterflies
They are distressed, they are abuzz with love to you
But walls won't speak with you
So stop searching the answer
You'll fail searching the answer

A song for Lea

Easy, don't move, don't move
Keep stayin' between symphonic sounds
With me no one would prove you
No one should ask for, what we have done

We're two more souls accepting what the night pretends
Warm up, warm me up with your cold hands
Our home is somewhere here

Sirens behind our feet
We know, we both are gone too far
Those who have rights to make rules
They will keep stayin' cruel
Get in their car

Life is subject to give more than it takes
Hold on, we all are prone to do mistakes
You freeze, but still can warm me up with your hands
Keep close, 'cause little thing called hope depends on us

Blear and dull are our daring jokes
Your hair unkempt looked always so great
They bite hard, as hard as desperate dogs
Your eyes reflect a piece of our fate

Easy, don't move, don't move
Keep stayin' between symphonic sounds

Words

You're such a beauty, you speak 'bout love all time
You're such a beauty, you play with love like God

Once more I'm jailed, it's nothin' but

How could, how could I think your words were
As deep, your words were deep as ocean?

Your decent cruelty, your magnet-eyes-facade
Your lips so fruity, no kiss, no Miss, now I do see your lies

Once more you've failed, I'm suffrin' well

How could, how could I think your words were
As deep, your words were deep as ocean?

Instantly, my views do crash right now
Latently, they’re chasin’ me, but how
How could, how could I feel at home
Inside your chart house? but now I'll tear it down

How could, how could I think your words were
As deep, your words were deep as ocean?

Once more you've failed, I'm suffrin' well

How could, how could I think your words were
As deep, your words were deep as ocean?

Nature's hands

Again this war, we closed our doors
Again the same, I go insane
Again the same, I go insane

I fall easy in warm nature’s hands
Who can explain reasons and facts?

A further loss of things I just have found…
A hope to toss and all I used to bound…

I fall easy… in warm nature’s hands
Who can explain reasons and facts?

Face it

To call your name
How could it be same?
A little soul’s adventure for me,
I ask myself what it would like to be

If I can’t call you for those stupid, simple things
And never more know what next morning brings,
Morning brings

I threw your heart away,
Like things, that shouldn’t stay
My life ain’t calm since you are gone,
I am so sorry for the things I’ve done!
Things I’ve done to you

I realize,
I never equalized,
That you loved me epitomized,
If you still did, I’d be surprised!
Stay there wondering

If I can call you for those simple and stupid things
And never more know what next morning brings,
Morning brings

Water

Please attend me to the door
I guess that now less sound is more
Heartbeat now cold enough to
Mistreat another love too
Your arms are stretched for me but
Just to fill the room

I think we still can't call it crime
The atmosphere of blame's not mine
The atmosphere of blame's not yours
So smile at me, yeah, smile at me

Please help me to tie up my shoes
My hands won't stop to quake
Our necks enclosed by panic noose
Cause tries being sleazy fakes
Heart beats now slow enought to
Mistreat another trust too
Your arms are stretched for me but
Just to stay apart

I think we still can't call it crime
The atmosphere of blame's not mine
The atmosphere of blame's not yours
So smile at me, yeah, smile at me

Say I'm not confused
Why should I be confused?
How could I be confused?
I do accept those things we do
And time will flow like water
Through our hands

Heebie-jeebies

We are upset
But who says our minds are dead?
Heart breathes, but froze
And you still harm yourself with a rose

See those things that cause that fun,
End those things that you begun,
Lick up milk from her goose skin,
All will claim: “It’s wrong, you sin”
But don’t believe it is alright
Behind this curtain, there’s no light
You anyway will change, but might,
You find in you your covered side

Heebie-jeebies I’ll cause on your skin
Sometime and somehow you will love this sin

We are in clouds
In black clouds and your mum’s not proud
Heart breathes, but froze
While you still hurt yourself with a rose

See those things that cause that fun..

Heebie-jeebies, I’ll cause on your skin
Sometime and somehow you will love this sin

Thanks and bye

You want to know
What I think about it?
You want to know
How I feel about it?

You're pushing me against a wall
But I should thank you, I should thank you
While you are hurting me so cold
You make this song to be

I'll tell you what a friend
Told to me, watching me sinking
He said I have to learn
This so-called positive thinking!

You're pushing me against a wall
But I should thank you, I do thank you
While you are hurting me so cold
You make this song to be

Sugar

Sweat, you still ignite
The place that orbits our bed
Throw me into light
Bend my knees and forge a chain
What if I decide
To kiss you one more time again?
Would it be fire?
My bruised heart just can't sustain

Another day turns his dark back on us
The notes we love are no more unisonous
Those April nights seem to me to be close to us
But by now
No more crazy things we both could laugh about
It's a cold air you are breathing out
Supernova's close but we won't talk about
Because

My dear, your fear 'bout us
Seems to be like a bee
Flyin' 'round from there to here
From me again to you, my dear

Sweat, you still ignite [...]

We used to blame eachother drops meticulous
Look what we reached is hush now so rediculous
Even hourglass, it used to stop for us
Before
Serenity will find it's way right back to us
And you will wear one day a perfect backless dress
We will change things and overpaint the mess
Because

Sweat, you still ignite [...]

Window

Step by step, no need to cry
Someone always says goodbye
Step back, try it on your own

One step outside - the window's closed
Looks much higher than you've supposed
Don't do this, try it on your own

Look, sundown's always above
The restless heart chained up by love
No matter, it's better we go home

Your helplessness just can't be truth
Now bite your lip and walk back smooth
Get up, your turn, it's time we relearn to
Give away more

Snowflakes

Here we go now, for all the snowflakes far below, that fall below
In the meantime, the clouds above bring scars to grow, make stars unglow
Here we reap now, the seeds that were our guarantee for casualties
Will we stop now, or will we reach the final train, exempt the rain?

Is there a chance
That we will start just once again?

Here we go, moving slow,
and we still do manage things for which we will take damage
Its all about what your heart says, let me know

Here we fall now, like all the flakes that fell before, glide well no more
Here we crawl now, in quicksand that we both ignored, our total score

Is there a chance
That we will start just once again?

Here we go, moving slow,
and we still do manage things for which we will take damage
Its all about what your heart says, let me know

Still we go, moving slow,
and we still do manage things for which we will take damage
Its all about what your heart says, let me know

Colorstain

A further time you're calling
And try to pursue a broken line
Seem loosing future after you have
Taken mine
We drew a chart with oil-based colors
Dissolving in the rays of sun
No visual form means sometimes art, but
I am done

You're gone, I'm save
Stand on my own feet again
Who thought we would
See these all as 'nother bruise?
Inside the dark
Lightgranades with sound of change
Caused by a small spark
Killing stains being out of range

A kind of our destination
Is to play two souls stayin' close apart
Nothing unusual for our lives is
Wait night and day, tryin' to stay hard
A little spot on white flush paper
Is source of truth I would not blight
Tomorrow might
Tomorrow might...

You're gone, I'm save [...]

Stop that, be sure
There's no color any more
I could paint you with
With same devotion as before
I heard you cried
I know you cry
Stop that, be sure
I wouldn't follow you no more

Sentimental Samantha

A young bleary morning just like yesterday
I'm walking close right behind you eight footsteps away
They see you walk tender ways and try you to tease
Short words cause forcefull conclusions - you choose "don't please"

And all, all I see is day well dominated
By spell you stay frustrated and sick about it

Dispaired emotions collapse in sparked heap
Unfortunately someone always steals your sleep
A pavement, a young guy, first spark of a fray
You hardly slamming the door, "please, stop" you say

And all, all I see is day well dominated
By spell you stay frustrated and sick about it

Your father's looking after you
And you allow your heart's walk-through, sentimental Samantha
You lean your back against the door
And wail and sigh and become more sentimental, Samantha

Look, others are glad,
Look, others are blessed,
By others who let
Their feelings self-messed

Your father...

Your father's looking after you
And you allow your heart's walk-through, sentimental Samantha
You lean your back against the door
And wail and sigh and become more sentimental, Samantha

Meadow

Lost the proof of own existence
As a kind of living creature
It was always there without a distance
Was something like my personal preacher

Instructed me seeing through other's eyes
Untouchable but near and close
Taught list'ning to conscience's advice
From head until down it's toes

Never thought I could lose this thing
Never believed of being without
Never imagined that breaking this ring
Would fill me up with despair and doubt

Lost my constant attendant
Colorless and quiet
Passing and dependent
Lieing about without a riot

Reflections of things done wrong
Now they are blind
They are forever gone
So why should I mind?

Never thought I could lose this thing
Never believed of being without
Never imagined that breaking this ring
Would fill me up with despair and doubt

[leaf has fallen]
Another leaf has fallen
While something still is callin’
My ego keeps me crawlin’ on

Spotlights

They push you up
They pull you down
They're tearing you apart
Well some say left
And some say right
You're drifting since the start

All eyes on you
The spotlight's on
Now can you stand the pressure?
Your heart stands still
But beating fast
Now sing your song with pleasure

The fear of failing grows
Turn the spotlights off 'cause I can't stand them no more
It's battle for the show
But I can't go on 'cause I have no faith no more

They torture you
With looks like knives
Just judging without words
The voiceless crowd
Steals your aplomb
Is this what you deserve?

All eyes on you [...]

The fear of failing grows [...]

Don't tell them

We start
Start another
Another tragedy
We fight
Fight each other, but
It sounds like harmony

There’s somethin’ to say now
Swear this story to secrecy
So here I’m begging today now
Say hello, say hello

My fee - I’m on my knees and wailing
‘Please, dont tell them nothing, honey’
A silent breeze within the trees, it whispers truths unfunny
No matter how our story ends
And why our wounds still bleedin’
Dont let the salt come in again, sustain
And tell them nothing honey

Last night
Strange revival
Of our fantasy
Last flight
Next arrival
The end of ecstasy

There’s somethin’ to say now [...]

My fee - I’m on my knees and wailing [...]

These words are bound to be the past now
These words are bound to never last now